28.1.2018 – Eija
Facing death and the afterlife
My near-death experience
I am racing at a tremendous speed in a light vortex, and I sense, become aware that there are two great Light beings guiding my flying. These Light beings are on both sides of me. The speed is indescribable, but I cannot determine the direction I’m racing towards. I’m only aware of the enormous velocity of the vibration. Maybe it indeed is solely an increase of vibration and transitioning to a higher level.
We arrive at a “state”, where there is only rippling, crystal-like light and incredible peace and love. The same is also still transmitted from the bright Helpers that are next to me. I experience deep joy and peace.
I become aware that I’m “far away” from my own body that is
at this moment lying somewhere in a critical state surrounded by doctors and
nurses. My Helpers radiate great love and make me understand that I’m at the
first gate of death. I’m filled with deep understanding, awareness of God,
Love. It is everything I have ever ached for.
My whole being and soul appeal that I could remain in that state, but they communicate that I have to return and not the least for the sake of my children of which the youngest is fighting for survival at this very moment somewhere there.
My wonderful Helpers also let me know that it is time for them to show me my calling for this life. The peace and joy around me intensify and soon I see in that space a following projection-like picture: in front me I see a long row of tables. When I look closer, I can notice that it does not end anywhere but just keeps on going and going. In this endless row, the tables are covered with white glowing tablecloths, and each table has a brown clay pot and in each pot, there is a lovely spring green little seedling that has two to three small petals.
I can sense my Helpers smiling at me, and then communicating that this symbolism is used with me because they know (of course!) about my love for gardening and plants. They also tell me that my mission on earth is to help these seedlings grow because in these times they no longer know how the growing is done.
This vision is deeply imprinted in my heart and soul but at the same time I do experience great overwhelming sorrow and beg that I could stay, but they communicate that because of my mission I cannot stay… All of a sudden the Light kind of overwhelms me, and I pass out and lose my consciousness of that state and that moment.
When I then later wake up from the surgery, I cannot remember the episode but the doctors tell me how they had fought for my life and also for the life of my little human seedling. The C-section had been extremely difficult because my uterus had ruptured during contractions and my little one was crosswise in my belly. The whole staff was of the opinion that it was a genuine miracle that we both survived as usually both perish. For a few days after that, I experienced this extraordinary feeling of being outside my body and I could not fully understand that I was not dead.
That was the beginning of a long recovery and little by
little my memories of those events resurfaced. I could remember seeing 12
persons in the operating room and an older man in the room next door whose knee
surgery had to be postponed because of my situation even if they had already
prepared him for the operation. I checked if all this that I remembered was
accurate, and all my recollections held true.
That out-of-body experience was not the first for me but the near-death experience in contrast was. Certain doors, which otherwise are closed, were opened for me at that time in 199, for a certain reason. Even if I did not at that time entirely understand my mission, I did understand the depth and the importance of the experience for my spiritual development. To sum up, my whole life changed.
The out-of-body experiences had started a few years earlier, actually immediately after my UFO experience. That UFO encounter happened close to our home and I experienced that with my first-born who was 4 years old at that time. We got to encounter a very typical light phenomenon, a UFO, after which my spiritual awakening truly started. The whole of the 1990s was a time of very compact spiritual learning even if there were attempts to be a completely ordinary mom and human among others. Those attempts, however, only prolonged my learning and lowered my vibration. I will not narrate any further my travels or describe my meetings with different star consciousnesses, abductions or my other experiences. That could be another topic at another time.
After my experience, I did read some books of near-death experiences but at that time there were not that many books available. Nowadays you can buy those kinds of books in every bookstore or even at the gas station. The best explanations I got from the depictions related to the states of Bardo in Buddhism.
There were, however, many issues that bothered me. What happens after you die? How does the process go forward, how does the spiritual experience of the soul influence it, etc. etc.…? I did not find, however, explanations profound enough and gradually the experience faded to the background. My spiritual awakening, by contrast, did not. I can sincerely say, that my life, my understanding of myself and my whole outlook on life changed because of that experience and the events that took place after that.
When I discovered the cleansing method developed by Patrick about 4 years ago the pieces of the puzzle started slowly falling into their place. During the years, we had come across each other in these circles previously but we had never gotten to know each other properly. When he then brought these tools to me to my “grannie cottage”, I knew that finally the missing link towards my own development had been found.
It was time to leave my “grannie cottage” and I pretty quickly took up the mission that my Helpers had shown me over 20 years ago. I had taken many attempts at my mission during the years but my tools had been insufficient. Now my life is dedicated to spiritual knowledge and sharing it. I truly try to advise all seedlings on how to grow towards your own Spirit. Together with Patrick we also try to water, coach and strengthen the new seedlings, the seekers of the Spirit. Now I’m finally doing what I came here to do in this life, in this body, with the experience I carry from many lives.
About 6 months ago the theme of death returned and I got new insight into the states after death, and what you should prepare for and how the process after death goes forward. I was, however, very confused because many current books written for example by well-known mediums or researchers, only supported my experience partly. I needed more information and experience.
All of a sudden in a very deep state of meditation I set off entirely “without warning” into that Light vortex while being aware that my body was still sitting in the chair somewhere far away. I once again experienced the pure expansion and great love. The Light vortex brought me to a state that abruptly turned into darkness though and for a moment I experienced almost a panic because I did not know how to proceed from that state. I also got to experience how deep the fear can be when you become aware the there is no returning back to the body. I experienced all that in just a few moments realizing at the same time that I’m completely alone in that state. I fumbled for a moment and calmed myself down by praying and begging the Light to give a helping hand. God, please help me for I don’t know where to “go”, how to proceed. The emptiness around me was huge and truly completely empty. There was only me, my soul that was trying to reach the Light, my own Spirit…
Then a view opened up in which the Earth was far below me, kind of tilted, and I was given the information that there would not be any possibility to return back, there was nothing there anymore, no physical body, no “place”. After a moment’s peace, the panic returned and after that a great pain, for I knew that there are so many souls wandering alone at their moment of death, without any direction. And I could no longer help, I was already gone. I remembered my children and my sorrow deepened. At the same time, I experienced as if strands were coming from my soul and traveling towards those persons that I was concerned about at that moment… I did not take notice of any other strands. I understood that those strands were hindering me from going forward towards the Light and connecting to the Highest. I wanted to free myself of those strands! I could detach myself from all the other strands that traveled to different people but the strands towards my children were so strong that I was not able to untie them. Guilt was taking over my state still stronger and I was about to sink even deeper into sorrow and through that to a stickier and lower vibrating state. I became aware at that moment that I was being taught now for the future. As if my Highest Self was directing the events from the sidelines. My secure state and at the same time my awareness of the state around me returned.
I turned my back to Earth and felt that I had to continue my journey in this state of life after death. In front of me, I could see something like a gate and I was informed that it represented the beginning of the journey in which each soul goes through the energies we have collected and stored in our soul during this life. I would have to go through my latest life and my journey would begin by first exploring the lowest of my energies, my fears, feelings, and thoughts. If the feeling would take over me, it would be most probable that I would remain in that state corresponding to that feeling for a long time… I would have to reach for the Light with faith and trust. And at that moment I knew that each and every soul would have to go through that journey alone and understand one’s own energies, related to feelings and thoughts, for the next life. I understood that the experiences of our soul work like a magnet in regard to the experiences after death.
All of a sudden I was again aware and in my chair and had my experiences clearly in my mind. I wondered very much how those experiences that I had had out there felt like they took only a few minutes but had taken over an hour at this physical state.
I felt how this knowledge of this experience had been saved
in my vibration and I was once again grateful for the high-level help that I
I had a similar kind of meditation journey again a few weeks ago during which even more detailed information was given. The subject began to interest me again and I started to yearn for an overall picture if at all possible. I asked for an understanding of many similarities but also for cultural differences related to near-death experiences. What is the truth, the logic, that without a doubt has to exist also related to this matter?
That I know, that Higher Wisdom, The Creative Power follows cosmic laws and that everything is systematic, a so-called common thread exists that shows how the cosmic laws operate. Like above, as below, macro cosmos, microcosmos, etc. I believe that a human soul does not become an angel when it dies. Instead, the frequency of vibration an individual has reached during his life will determine the state and the experiences that the soul has to go through in life after death. The law of attraction no doubt operates also outside the physical body. It is not the body, but the soul, the vibration, our own energy field that attracts events and people towards us during life.
At this moment I’m gathering my own information, my experiences and also the experiences and studies made by other people reported in different books. I’m trying to accomplish such a big picture in which the “common thread” could be found. There is a greater logic that I cannot reach yet, as it is now still scattered into small pieces of a puzzle in different cultures, religious programmings, and our own expectations and wishes. The big questions are for example why is it that people from the Western world discuss with dead people, why for example a medium can reach them somewhere in the state of life after death… why the discussions with the dead have become a bit like a disrespectful show in the Western world, what are we looking for when in medium sessions… why so many people want to cling to the deceased… In which phase are the souls, reached by the mediums, reborn… Or what is that energy that the medium is able to reach… I also wonder why we still do not just trust and believe that life after death continues and the soul moves forward… Or: why is it that the Buddhists do not see angels at their moment of death… and why do they want to prepare for death their whole life if they are true Buddhists… etc., etc.… So many loose pieces that are just waiting for their own place to be found in the big picture, the Truth that is and always will be.
I also have numerous experiences of the deceased close by to many living people and we have helped them towards the Light because according to our experience, what they first and foremost ask for is help in moving forward. We do not try to communicate with them, except only on very rare occasions when they clearly express that they have something to say. During many of my experiences, I have been given a clear picture of the deceased and their souls next to the people we have helped. In that way also they have gotten peace when souls close to them have reached the Light. Moving into Light is only the first step and we do not know of anything else as it is not our business to know but the business of their Helpers and Light beings who will be there to meet them. We only help them forward from here.
There is a lot of contradictory information in many books but also many similarities to a certain point. So my work on this issue continues and I’m still putting the pieces of the puzzle together. I will publish my summary as soon as I have managed to build an observable picture from the puzzle pieces. That would be needed at this time more than ever before. That is the reason my Helpers have given me this task, which sounds very huge, exactly now.